Karma

i know that i am in no position to comment about this...but i was inspired!!!

i was listening to a talk in my car yesterday and it was about karma...and i know karma is something too complexd for us to even comprehend...but i think what was said by the speaker was actually quite good...

when we first hear about karma...what we usually think is...its something like maths...if you do a good deed and you get 10 good merits...then u do something bad and get 5 bad merits...its okay because you generally have 5 good merits still hahaha!! or at least thts how i used to think..

but according to this speaker, karma is abit like your programming in your head...the more often you do good deeds, the more your mind is programmed for kindness...and the more often you will do good deeds...the more you do, the more natural it will become...on the other hand, if you keep doing bad, you will naturally keep doing bad, ignorant to its consequences!...

my interpretation is something like when we study..you know? who enjoys studying?? nobody right?...but how do we make ourselves study? we study bit by bit...slowly by slowly...more n more...when we start off, we can only sit few minutes the most n lose concentration, our mind wanders...but we force ourselves to sit abit longer n abit longer...n soon it suddenly becomes a habit...sitting 1 hour to study is okay...n soon it becomes not enough..u enjoy it...sometimes we get so caught up in looking for the answer tht suddenly 2 hours passd n we didn't realize we spent so much on tht subject!...

so similarly to good things...i used to feel tht when i do certain good things, i dont feel like im sincere enough...n sometimes im even afraid if im doing it for some ulterior motive...but dont worry! just keep doing, n soon it becomes my nature to do good...my thoughts will become more sincere...then im not "faking it" already...so actually...in a sense...i guess we gotta give credit to ppl who r trying to be nice n good...although they may seem "fake"...but they r trying..they r trying...n thts all tht counts...

so lets keep trying to be good...let us remind each other always to be good, to think good, to speak good...let our actions be filled w love, our speech be filled w love, our thoughts be filled w love...let us be mindful in body, speech and thoughts...may we all be well n happy always, sadhu sadhu sadhu =)