happy new year folks =)
aspirations r to be made n kept this year, n hopefully im able to keep mine...
i found this meaningful quote tht day tht made me think, it said "why would i blog n share some opinion if im not expecting a reply?"...frm my view, thts kinda true now isnt it? why in the world DO we blog? we r thinking of sharing opinions or our thoughts w our friends, n hopefully get their views on what it is we r sharing...bcoz...if we weren't botherd w getting anyones opinion...why do we need to say it out?? its honestly quite time consuming to sit in front n think n rethink what n how to say...isnt it?...
anyways..now i realize..i shouldn b afraid to b myself n expect or ask for the things i expect...its true some ppl may feel differently...but there r also ppl who feel the same n if we just continue pretending to b something we r not...too afraid to ask for something we want...how will we find those ppl who wan the same things as us?
when i was younger...i enjoyd caring for ppl...doing things for them...celebrating their birthdays...being crazy, hyper n energetic...yet warm n approachable when required...but the ppl around me treatd it as a weirdness...something not cool...it wasn cool to care for ppl too much...it wasn cool to b celebrating birthdays for ur friends...it wasn cool to share ur feelings....nor was it cool to b hyper n energetic...so...i held back just to fit in...i didn ask for this nor that...n every once in awhile...i couldnt take it n would breakdown wondering why i felt so lonely...
today i sit here n blog w the same feeling still...feeling as unapproachable still...but its much better...as i hv found ppl whom r accepting for me as i am...n are as funny too...they hv their quirks n bad habits...but they r all unique n deep down inside hv kind hearts...
so...b brave...ask for what u want...n if u dont get it...its okay...at least u askd...n so now...i will ask...ask something tht i was too embarassd to ask all of u...my friends...
will u please chat w me when ur free or lonely? sometimes i feel unwantd or as if im the only one tht wants to b other ppls friends...will u plz share more about urself to me? i may hav known u for long but osmetimes i feel i donno u well enough
=) there, at least i said it...good night!
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